Psalm 115:12

12.) The Lord remembers us and will bless us:

He will bless the house of Israel,

He will bless the house of Aaron,

13.) he will bless those who fear the Lord-small and great alike.

When I am troubled I will fall back one the word of God for comfort for guidance.

Last night I was deeply trouble about several things going on in my house and this is what God gave me. I also remember what Pastor Rose said about you have to work for Blessings as well.

But why is that some people get blessing so easily and others have to struggle to get them.

It doesn't seem fair. I guess that is one of my failings, TRUST. As a child we are trusting of everyone but when Trust is stolen from you as a child is it so much harder to trust as an adult. That's me. My father betrayed my trust and now as an adult I can not trust as I should so have and so I failed God here by not trusting completely. Are we as Christians to have blind faith? I need, but I don't know what I need. And so I struggle. But in struggling have I failed? Where do I go. I keep going back to God but I can't seem to get it right. I can't seem to find the answers I need to not make the same mistakes. I guess that makes me human. Is my fear of God not enough? Where have I failed. I see people I admire who seem to know something I don't. I accepted Jesus as my Savior and I have relied on him throughout my life for everything but one area seems to be the one area I am hit in every time and that is finances. Just when I seem to be getting it right bam! I'm hit again? When will it end. And why the finances every time? Why can't I have the financial stability I need. I am told not to pray for money or about money but then I'm told to bring all my cares to God? So where do I go. I pray, but still no ansewer. Still the same struggle! Does anyone have the answer I need?